Two weeks ago I found out I didn’t get the last job I had applied for in Charleston. To say I was devastated was an understatement. There were no more options left and it look(ed/s) like I may/will have to travel to find a job. This means packing up my car again and driving away from Scarlett, Casey and my friends and my life here in Charleston. Only this time, unlike with rotations, indefinitely.
I have been negative, angry, sullen, lazy, bored and frustrated. I thought this part of becoming a PT would be the easy part. I know that finding jobs can be tough, but I have been told from the start, “not if you work in health care.” I slaved away, busted my butt and absolutely, entirely dedicated myself to being ready to start in this profession. I went above and beyond (increasing my stress and increasingly making Casey want to kill me) so that when this time came I was ready and qualified. I didn’t want to share this negativity and frustration with you all, so I avoided Runs4Treats!
The light in the tunnel is that I have not stopped running. It sees me through everything. It is the one thing that is not an option to do or not do. It gets done. (Unlike the upstairs bathroom I have been meaning to clean for two weeks and have had ample time to do but have refused to anyway). I will begin training again Monday for a race in November (though I’m not sure exactly which yet). It has kept me moving forward.
I have put in three more applications in Charleston this week (without any call backs yet, but fingers crossed). We have friends coming into town on Saturday, they will be here for a week and I have given myself a deadline of July 18th to hear back from these jobs I have applied to, then I absolutely have to pull the trigger and take a travel job somewhere.
Life doesn’t work out how you think it will, hope it will or feel like it should. You don’t always get what you deserve but you have to push through. I am pushing through now and refuse to let myself get so down about this starting today. A positive life starts with a positive attitude!!
Bring on today (and a phone call on Monday please)!